I am blank in my thoughts as I sit here to write but I am determined nevertheless to write. Its been more than an year since I visited my blog.I dont know if its the lack of thoughts or the lack of drive to puts the thought across which kept me away. Lots has changed and lots more will but somehow I seem to be just a bystander watching time slip by. Rather I am letting time slip by....As I once mentioned in my tweets, I have so much to do but its all in the thoughts, to get them across into action, I lack the drive and I sometimes ponder if its the same me or someone else that is living in my body. I was never so laid back and boring. Thoughts were brought into action before they could be heard by the person next to me- thats how energetic and interested I was. But lately, I just see myself holding onto those thoughts........how much am I really doing to get that thought in action is something I myself cant answer.
Is it my age which is nearing 40 and the fear to take risks ........to make a move? Is it disinterest or the fear of failure and need to start it all over from a scratch? Its all easy to talk insipiringly, but how much do those thoughts do to inspire someone is really what matters.Words looks wonderful when decorated and lots being said in a line but for me those words have only made a beauty statement ......to make them work in action is what I still am looking for.....Its probably the inertia......the inertia of not having done what I want to-which is taking time to set the ball rolling...
I guess we all get into this mode where we have more advices to give and very less which we really follow. We all have lots to talk but never have an ear to listen.Human nature- thats what it is .. no one to blame for that..But when things go wrong, the finger is always pointing away.......the magnetics of the system of never-accept-failure-as-your-own- thats the physics behind it...
Never really thought I had some thoughts to pen on "sweet salt and bitter" but once I started to write I have managed to set the ball rolling........its time ......to LIVE LIFE.......AND STOP READING AND TALKING ABOUT IT....DO AND LIVE AND ACCEPT THE FAILURES AND SUCCESS WITH EQUAL GRACE....the words are for me and hold no advice for anyone......I am off to take the breath of life and do what I wish to......so until next time....and thats gonna be sooner than the last time I said it......for sure!
